Monday, May 31, 2004
hey...
nana..thanks for the note. miss you too girl!!!
:D
like my new bloggy layout ppl??
very nice eh??
yesh..i was very inspired.
hehehe...
and alex parks rocks.
yest i very sad.
got mistaken for a maid sia!!!
this philippine woman asked me if i was philippine.
so i say no.
then she asks me
"Indonesian??"
i was like.. wat the hell...
is my face so maid-ish??
no rite?
still hot rite?
but anw yest was fun.
met khai at town after tuition.
mooched around.
i bought a trucker cap.
khai so cute la...haha..miss her a lot.
hope it was a good birthday yeah girl?
at least get to see me wat.
after tt went to watch nordin play.
haha..he cool la.
he pull out power.
and he scored one.
and he was so happy la.
cos tt goal was kinda important.
but anw..good day.
-muacks to you-
--insignificant lies--
11:15 am
Sunday, May 30, 2004
Cheek to Cheek- Ella Fitzgerald
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Yes, heaven, I'm in heaven
And the cares that hung around me through the week
Seem to vanish like a gambler's lucky streak
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Oh I'd love to climb a mountain
And reach the highest peak
But it doesn't thrill me half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek
Oh I'd love to go out fishing
In a river or a creek
But I don't enjoy it half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek
Now, mama, dance with me
I want my arms about you
The charms about you
Will carry me through, yes
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And the cares that hung around me through the week
Seem to vanish like a gambler's lucky streak
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Oh I'd love to climb a mountain
And reach the highest peak
But it doesn't thrill me half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek
Oh I love to go out fishing
In a river or a creek
But I don't enjoy it half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek
Come on and dance with me
I want my arm about you
The charm about you
Will carry me through to
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Yes, dance with me
I want my arm about you
The charm about you
Will carry me through to
Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Cheek to cheek
Cheek to cheek
Cheek to cheek"
:))))))))
--insignificant lies--
1:33 am
Saturday, May 29, 2004
hiya bloggy..
i had crez trg just now.
it was nice.
got all my batch ppl come down.
nice..
get to see my gurlfren..SU!
haha...miss u loads girl..
hilang rindu nari..
after trg it rained really heavily.
so me nurah su rely farha lynn n nordin all stuck at delta.
in the end we order canadian pizza n eat.
so nice.
by the time pizza came the rain like little bit.
we eat it outside the swimming pool.
kindaa romantic if u think about it.
eat one singapura special and hawaiian.
both nice.
then thirsty.
nordin buy for us drinks.
nice.
thank god the ice lemon tea sold out.
or else...
eee...
anw rely's durian strudel was amazing.
but really..guilty pleasure..
i dun like the aftertaste of durian.
but i like it la..
oh well..
sometimes i feel lost.
all alone.
and i don't know what you mean to me.
and i get scared.
afraid of the feelings i feel inside.
afraid of the choices i have to make
and i forget the taste of the wine
is it bitter?
is it sour?
is it supposed to flow and roll around in your tongue?
and i cant get used to this new flavour.
though i really want to.
i want to embrace that which i had wanted.
that which i had craved for.
and the tears i cried.
its all because
of nothingness
and of the fear
of never wanting to let you go
and of having to do it eventually.
--insignificant lies--
12:12 am
Thursday, May 27, 2004
hear a lot of nice songs today.
kiss-because im a girl
az yet-last night
1st Ladi- never be replaced
but me now in love with kiss.
very nice.
i think today i super emotional.
dunno why..
but im ok now.
yay.
guess i was just thinking too much.
because i'm a girl*kiss
Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso
marur haji guresso
nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo
manhi guriurgoya sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
modungor swibge da jumyon
gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri
maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya
marur haji guresso
nega shirhojyodago
nunchiga obnun nan nur boche giman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo
manhi guriurgoya sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
[narration] Onur urin heojyosso
budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe
nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde
himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde
sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur
iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona
sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso
norur yoghamyonsodo
manhi guriurgoya sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
norur yoghamyonsodo
manhi guriurgoya sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
english translation
I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you`re special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don`t think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again
You should have told me you didn`t like me any more
But I couldn`t see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I`ll still miss you
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Hey babe
The pain
It`s not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together
But I know now
I`ve been blind
You told me that you`d never let me down
Whenever I needed you you`d always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
Even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you
Don`t take advantage of a girl`s willingness to do anything for love
And her caring instinct
I didn`t know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i`ll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although i will curse you i`ll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
--insignificant lies--
10:56 pm
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
haiz..
so sian.
miss b.
bored to death.
tt pig is sleeping.
oh well..
me listening to kiss-because im a girl now.
all agnes fault.
just now go her hse then i hear.
then now i hooked all over again.
its a super sweet song.
i like.
got this other song also.
by 1st Ladi.
its called never be replaced.
pretty cool song.
but its still pending on imesh.
loser.
i feel like sleeping.
but got lotsa things to do.
like my chem assg.
but i just feel like being brat.
and not giving a damn about it.
haiz..
miss. miss. miss.
so. so. so. so.
MUCHIES...
urgh.
life is more complicated now actually.
but a bit less burdened.
and im happy.
yeshiree.
;)
humare raaz hai baby..
hahahahaha...
--insignificant lies--
10:41 pm
really sad..
ok maybe not tt sad.
i got so many things to do now.
and im so not free.
cant do the things that i love anymore.
haiz.
i wish i could do many things.
say many things.
but i know i cant.
and i shant.
its not me anymore.
i am a new me.
a new fabulous me.
don't you love me??
;)
--insignificant lies--
7:49 pm
i hope i dont get killed by ms soh.
cos i skipped her lect.
hope she dunno la tt we skip.
yesh..
leila and kei are with me.
n no i did not influence them k.
!
haha.. kk
n just now wanted to change blog layout.
then i decided tt it wasnt tt nice after all.
oh well.
--insignificant lies--
12:50 pm
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
I Only Want To Be With You
by Vonda Shepard
I don’t know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never want to let you go
‘Cause you started something, can’t you see
That ever since we met, you’ve had a hold on me?
It happens to be true
I only want to be with you
It doesn’t matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
Look what has happened with just one kiss
I never knew that I could be in love like this
It’s crazy but it’s true
I only want to be with you
You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I’d care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn’t stand a chance
Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we’re together honey I don’t care
‘Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we’ve met, you’ve had a hold on me?
No matter what you do
I only want to be with you
--insignificant lies--
10:46 pm
Monday, May 24, 2004
im in sch.
im bored.
later got to go for aftnn PE!!!!
farker.
waste my freaking time.
afterwhich i have remedial.
nabei!
man.
its so hilarious tt now hockey stopped
and im still going home late on mon.
grr...
anyways today got bio test.
ok.
ok.
ok.
sucked.
might as well not have studied.
waste my time.
nabei.
there is nothting left to do online.
i think i just am an MSN addict.
yah. definitely.
feel like changing my blog layout again.
irritated with the fact tt no pic can come out.
grr.
grr.
screw it.
why am i so vulgar today??
haha...
i mean i feel like fighting!!
haha...
haiz..make love to me.
--insignificant lies--
2:21 pm
Sunday, May 23, 2004
man im so bored...
dunno wat to do also..
im supposed to be studying but im still too sleepy to do anything now.
maybe later.
i see how.
im online and stoning.
wats that supposed to mean?
mayb i should just go and sleep.
yesh..tt is a good idea.
but the more i sleep..
the more i will be tired.
oh well...
i only want to be one place right now.
but i cant be there.
haiz.
oh well.
haiz.
yucks.
man could i b whinier?
haha..yesh i could!
--insignificant lies--
2:37 pm
Saturday, May 22, 2004
im so tired now. had the worst sleep of my life.
thank goodness i dont feel whiny
or groggy or irritated.
my back hurts.
the dream i had was crappy.
there was this part i was trying to figure out wat to cook.
then some of the veggies looked
like caterpillar dah devour seh.
then i sleep.
then i wake up.
then i sleep.
then i wake up.
then i sleep.
then i wake up.
then i FARKING GIVE UP!!!!
man...
sickenign sleep.
fed up nya. grr.
--insignificant lies--
9:37 am
Thursday, May 20, 2004
hey...
last few hours before my birthday is officially over.
let me just say today..
has been the best birthday ever.
i will never forget my 18th birthday.
wat a way to celebrate my 18th birthday.
thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday today.
never got so much msgs before in my life.
thanks to (in no particular order)..
irma,div,su,khai,kai,leila,kei,priyaa,florence,shiling,agnes,farah,izyan,atie,filza,div,shin min,iza,shanthi,pali,den,quay,den's fren and dunno who else la..got too many liaoz..
cant think already...
most of all..thanks to you...
i love you.
so much.
-in love? maybe-
--insignificant lies--
10:38 pm
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
hey...
today went to watch main hoon na with kai.
nice sia.
freaking nice.
and let me just say this...
i am in LOVE!!!!
yesh i am...
hehehehehehehe...
with...
SUSHMITA SEN!!!
she is freaking hot!!! fark!
and such a good human being at tt.
not like some other beauty pageant winner.
now we know why sush is miss universe and the other person is just miss world.
hahahahha..
BIATCH.
screw all you fans of tt ms world.
yucks.
sushmita sen..woah..fark..hot...damn damn hot..
even kai got to agree with me.
and now i know i can trust my sis taste.
cos she said its nice.
and it is.
--insignificant lies--
10:44 pm
Sunday, May 16, 2004
ok..maybe i have been extra mushY? these days...
i dun care :P
haha..
i have been having many ideas.
need time to write them down though.
got to pass up my portfolio soon enough.
time is runnign out.
...
and i miss my baby.
cant wait for my birthday!
--insignificant lies--
9:04 pm
Friday, May 14, 2004
i am excited.
i wish and i wish.
i pray and pray.
and maybe it will happen.
and maybe it will not.
but i will always keep u in my heart.
where you will always be.
take me. make tove to me.
-[b!+abe]-
--insignificant lies--
12:27 am
Thursday, May 13, 2004
the cup is being filled.
it is gonna spill over.
dont stop.
please.
dont.
i wish the cup would break,
however.
made of porcelain
it is fragile.
and when it does
i wont complain.
i want to get the right amount
of sugar
and of salt.
and of tea
and cinammon rolls.
and clean that porcelain cup.
just right.
the saucer flies across the room
and lands on floor
as shattered glass.
the cup is still not broken.
maybe it is my doing.
and i see it is.
my hand firmly placed on the handles.
my hand had flung the saucer.
and i relent.
i know the cup.
i feel the cup.
i'll drink from the cup.
forever.
let the water.
spilleth over.
--insignificant lies--
12:02 am
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
hey ya...
i am in sch. waiting to ciao sch soon.
my sis stole my earphones.
i so need to go buy one of my own la.
at this rate i will go bonkers.
in dire need to listen to my songs.
if only can bring laptop ard with me.
then i can watch L word 24/7.
seriously tt freaking show...
it affects me.
two times i was tearing while watching.
darn!
by the way... like my new layout??
oh n if some of u cant see the pic..then well...
ur comp got too much security!:PP
too bad!
;)
i miss my b!
i miss su! really want to punch those idiot guys.
cant believe they are in my hockey team.
i ashamde to call myself an ajc hockey player.
the guys always cos us farking probs.
they are farkers. screw them. no wait.
let an old ah soh with smelly pussy screw them.
tts wat they deserve.
fark.
i want to write. ella fitzgerald. croon.
OC. the L word.
-ramblings-
[b!+abe]
*god!!! so much crap!*
--insignificant lies--
11:55 am
Monday, May 10, 2004
its at nite.
i havent done any writing yet.
maybe later.
im not in the mood now.
now i just want to hear ella fitzgerald croon to me.
i dunno its weird.
i feel like listening to jazz.
fuck im in a mood.
fuck this mood.
its nice and all.
but im so sappy.
and so floaty.
and so high.
"and when two lovers grow old..
they still say i love you..."
i think tts sweet.
hehe...
ciaoz.
--insignificant lies--
11:18 pm
hey...
im at home. later got trg.
got to go back to sch.
bummer.
cant go crez trg today.
so sad.
wonder how su's game will go later?
im so in a mood now.
dunno why.
its quite irritating actually.
its like im on dopemine or something.
and i just feel like immersing myself
in my writing.
and then sleep dreaming about everything that i have written..
and there is no more fairies..
and no more light..
and i start to mumble crap like this...
and i wonder...what the hell am i doing?
loveless angel..biatch.
i am still child.
--insignificant lies--
3:12 pm
Thursday, May 06, 2004
its like you're here.
and then you're not.
and you wish you had taken all those steps.
bring you home.
that's where u wanted to be in the first place. i dont understand how thngs could have moved.
from this point. to that. and to the next.
and if we ever come back and meet the shadows i think i will be done for.
for the moment
i see a light
that shines without any truth or any lies. what is that light? i do not know.
beseech me. be with me.
and in the end i will be with you.
for you are my goddess.
and in darkness i see the world's glory.
panned out against the backdrop of the ocean.
ever blue. i surfaced from the depths of my soul.
and you never saw the traces of copper on my hands.
like you will never see me.
nor the inner sanctity. i call life. love. or loneliness.
can we meet again?
--insignificant lies--
11:40 pm
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
hey yo..
today played against cjc. won 2-0.
i SCORED a goal.
hehe..the first goal some more.
so happy.
the girls were happy.
i played last man today.
which is nice.
not much running. none at all actually.
then i went up for short corner.
the first one we did passed to flor but then got legs again.
then told den tt i was bloddy open la.
then told her to pass square.
then she did.
n then i hit.
n then BANG! it was in.
it passed two ppl sia.
haha..then the keeper.
and then BANG!!!
im happy.
:)
but still think we can win them more than tt. at least 3-0.
--insignificant lies--
10:10 pm
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Try Lyrics
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
--insignificant lies--
8:32 pm
im bored.
just got back frm priyaa's.
tired a bit.
but got to do hw soon.
but i want to sleep.
sleep can or not?
boring la.
haiz.
where is b? never msg me the whole of today.
maybe i am too used to her already la.
when she never msg me...haiz feel...
lost?
dunno la.
ok but this doesnt mean anything ok.
it just means we are close.
big deal!
--insignificant lies--
3:04 pm
Saturday, May 01, 2004
why my this thing never update?? nabei!!!!
--insignificant lies--
11:12 pm
grr grr.
later got trg.
like in 10 mins.
haha.
the pleasures of having it near ur house.
woot!
--insignificant lies--
7:23 am
b going jb tmr. gonna miss her.
safe journey k honey.
tmr got trg.
haha.
at my hse area there. power ah!
dun have to get up sooo early.
well as if it would make a diff.
haha.
dunno where the gang going after that though. hmm.
oh well.
hope me mommy will lemme go out.
or else.
haiz sit at home n study la.
wat to do.
anyways...
got to go now.
like my pic?
well i do anyways.
-love makes the world go round-
b!+abe
--insignificant lies--
2:17 am
